In order to write this I needed to start a file with just a title at a time that I had it in my mind but not enough time to start writing it otherwise I wouldn't even remember to write it. If that first sentence doesn't make sense to you, don't worry it doesn't really make sense to me and at this point I don't know if it should make sense to me! My brain is no longer functioning in the same way it did 13 years ago. I can only remember that things have been...different...for that long because that was when I was pregnant for the first time. I clearly remember (the fact that a memory from that long ago is clear is a miracle in itself!) saying to myself, once I have the baby, then my mind will get back to normal. Its been a downhill slide ever since.
I like to mask my anxiety with laughter, but in reality, I'm very disturbed by my declining cognitive function. I have found myself doing such idiotic things. I know you want to hear about some of those idiotic things because I absolutely love to hear about other people's "brain farts". That's what my friend likes to call them. When I hear that other people my age are suffering from a similar mental decline I take comfort in hearing their stories. Are my brain farts louder than theirs? Maybe theirs are more stinky! I willingly admit that I analyze these things in a pathetic attempt at making myself feel better. Sorry guys, your dementia is my ego boost. I know someone, lets call her Diana, who put 12 eggs in some brownies she was baking. My only reaction was that maybe, just maybe I haven't done anything that bad yet. Of course, I probably have and just am so far gone that I didn't even realize it. For all I know my husband's high cholesterol is a result of my own egg faux paus.
I've got to stop writing for now because my mind is starting to go blank. Yes, I'm serious...
isn't it horrible? there are some of the dumbest things that i remember.....for instance, many of my friends will call me to check THEIR schedules because i seem to remember that really well..... which is a dumb thing to have a mind for....
ReplyDeletebut sometimes i forget when my daughter is grounded, i forget what i am doing or why i am doing, i forget why i am calling someone as the phone is ringing.... get to the store and have no clue why i am there.
forget my age all of the time...
i could go on, but i only wanted you to have a small ego boost this morning- no need to start your week off with a big head.